Tuesday, October 27, 2015

Just Write

I have recently started a new job that believes a lot in goals for their employees. Like I seriously had homework to fill out a professional goal sheet to put in my file, to revisit! I have never been with a company that believed so much in what they do and the people that work for them. So this was one of my goals “to journal more”. My biggest problem has been finding topics to write on, instead of being all depressed every time. I put about 140-150 prompts in a jar and every night I pick out (Mason does) a random topic, I set a timer for 10 minutes and I write until the timer stops and then I stop. So far I have stuck with it for the most part. I don’t pick another topic until I have finished the topic already picked. So far I have what you see below. Obviously if the mood strikes I will turn a prompt into one post, but so far the 10 minute limit has been helpful. I recommend anyone doing this that enjoys writing or keeping a journal and STICK with it, which is my biggest problem. Enjoy (or not, that’s up to you)
Prompt #1: How would you like to make this world a better place? How can you best share your gifts with the world?
Wait a minute… Did I just wake up in the Miss Universe Pageant? In all honesty, Mason picked my first prompt out of the jar, so I had to do it or it would be cheating the whole project I am attempting here. With that... here goes nothing...  
If I had the means to make the word a better place, I would begin with children and move my way to adults. I would do it in that order because I believe that if children do not have responsible adults to help them through life, then that makes their lives hard to deal with alone. No child should have to suffer through life without someone that cares for them. Children are the ones most in need of help in our society and they are our future, so beginning with them would help the world already become a better place for that reason alone. I would then attempt to help as many adults as I could that legitimately needed help in their lives, regardless of their support system or lack thereof.  There are too many people out there that have nobody and are actually giving life their all, just to fail or give up in the end.
I would set up a home environment like others that was free of charge but with rules that needed to be followed. So that people wouldn’t have to worry about health coverage etc. Not a homeless shelter, something along the lines of a transitional living environment that provided a system of support through like-minded individuals. Which makes sense, because right now I work for a company that does these types of things, but through referrals from insurance companies.

I guess my biggest gifts that would be useful in this situation would be my gift of being a shoulder to cry on and an ear to listen.
I would do everything I could in my power to help by any means possible and hope that this would make the world a better place.
Time’s up!

Peace N Love

Prompt #2: If you had to evacuate your home because of a natural disaster, what three things would you take with you? 

Ok. So being that this is MY blog I am going to assume things are not the same as people or pets (hedgehogs too!) and say that they are already included in what I would take OBVIOUSLY!

I have actually given this type of thing a lot of thought before and I joke about it all the time, however if it really came down to it and I was limited on what I could grab on my way out the following would be in my very sweaty hands:

Purse, phone and…… mommy’s ashes

I CANNOT for the life of me think of a third thing that is of much importance to me so I will wait and touch on the two things I just listed.

My purse for obvious reasons! I have my banking information and identification in there so that would just be a smart thing for me to have.

My phone for reasons of being able to call for emergency reasons dependent, of course upon what this natural disaster was.

My mommy’s ashes, because I could not handle the thought of losing her twice! Even though it is just a small amount, it’s still a super big deal to me.

This prompt poses so many questions in my head that would tweak my answers each time. Like is this is a natural disaster that we are warned about? Because then I could take like 3 big suitcases and fill them up with a ton of things that I would need (memory type stuff and legal paperwork etc.). If it was a last minute thing, then these are the three things I would make sure to grab on my way out the door.

Either way, that is my answer and my time is up!

What would you take?

Peace N Love!

Prompt #3: Is there anything you feel guilty about? Is there anything you need to be forgiven for? 
Wow, we got right into the deep stuff on #3. Just a precursor, Mason picks the prompts out for me each night, so they are totally random. I almost threw this one out, because as soon as he read it out loud to me this was the first thing that popped into my head. So in the interest of time (10 minutes) here we go. 

I feel a lot of guilt when it comes to my mom.  I feel guilty for not doing more of the things she wanted to do when we were together. I hold the biggest amount of guilt when I think about the day that ultimately led to her leaving forever. I know it’s not my fault, but it doesn't make the weight and less heavy. 

When she moved in, we were all concerned about her living upstairs, but we had a system in place that worked really well (when she followed it, sometimes she was sneaky). When she was ready to come downstairs, she would call down and one of us would come up and walk down with her. On February 27th, we followed the system that was in place and she made it down the stairs. It was the first step on to the floor from the stairs that she slipped on and I was right there, but I didn't catch her...

I don't want to be forgiven and since this is MY blog I am not in NEED of forgiveness. I just want to apologize to her and hear her say "it's ok gnocchi, stop being so hard on yourself". I just want to apologize to everyone, for not catching her that day....

Peace N Love